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3:00 AM Marginalia: The Unnamed Mother of Augustine’s Son | Eternal First Words
3:00 AM Marginalia: The Unnamed Mother of Augustine’s Son | Eternal First Words 3:00 AM Marginalia: The Unnamed Mother of Augustine’s Son The Confessions lie open at 3 a.m. My mind lingers on the woman who bore his only son. Ten years together. Then she disappears. No name. No story. Just absence. Three a.m. The house dark, the book open again. Rereading Confessions, I keep circling back to her—the unnamed woman who lived with Augustine for ten years, bore his only child, Adeodatus. His first and last born son. Some say the church needed a celibate leader, so the mother had to vanish from the narrative. A greater example: the promiscuous man redeemed into sainthood, orders named after him, his writings explaining Jeremiah to generations. She? Erased. Augustine doesn't call her wicked. He writes of love, of heartbreak when she left (at...
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